Nymfomanka, část I.

Dosud neviděl. Stáhnul jsem si nějaké komentáře a pak na to zapomněl. Pak si myslel, že je to těch Sedmdesát odstínu hnědý, což je pěkná nuda. Přesto, že jsem si přečetl komentáře a viděl předtím jedno porno, který jsem stáhnul omylem s tím, mě to šokovalo svojí nahotou. Stacy Martin je hodně mrdavá kundička, ale upsat se takovýdle prasárně ji posouvá do uplně jiný herecký kategorie. Navíc ten její bobr je odpornej. A to se nevyjadřuju o pánském složení - myslím, že si tam střihnul malou roli i verbal. You are not supposed to think. Tvl, kdyby mně uklidila stul, tak bych ji zabil. Vlastně tady není co uklízet. Ale potřeboval bych vytřít podlahu. Wheres the fuck my cakefork? To je muj člověk. Pochybuju ale, že z toho výtahu vylezl sám. Opět jsou na tom nejlepší ty dialogy. Ale do nitra nymfomanky se mi dostat nepodařilo (ta starší mi připomíná moji psycholožku). Navíc se mi to každejch deset vteřin v přehravači zasekne, v WMP nejdou titulky a italsky opravdu neumím. Puvodně jsem myslel, že jde o dánský originál, ale přišlo mi to slovhově stravitělný, protože dánština je vážně paskvil (tudle větu musím vyškrtnout). I scoled myself for seeing him in this new light. LOVE is blind. Worse. Love distorts (blabla) things. Or even worse, love is something you are never asked for. The erotic was something I asked for, or even demanded of men. But this idiotic love, I felt humiliated by it. Jak já jí rozumím. Love appeals to the lowest instincts, wrapped up in lies. How do you say yes when you mean no, and vice versa. I m ashamed of what I became. It was beyond my control. Thank you meaning thats all. Past a lady with her poodle. Bych je tam uklidil oba. Nemužu se dočkat, až se tidle zmrdi budou v parku střílet za bílého dne. I even started humiliating myself on purpose in order for him to notice me. I thought you were such a wizard at parking. A jak se musí cítit chlap, kterej sedí na sedadle spolujezdce, zatímco jeho žena parkuje. I worked for a long time on a letter in which I told him about my feelings for him, but I couldnt bring myself to hand it over. Tvl, on o ni nejeví zájem, a ona mu napíše dopis. Tvl, ta sekretářka je taky pěkná kunda. Do you think that the letter is a bad idea? Nejhorší. No, I think its the right thing to do. To je mrcha! Hes always in a good mood on Fridays (I hate Mondays). Mu zkazí celej víkend! Marriage. Ale mně se líbí, jak jí to dal sežrat, když s ním nechtěla píchat. It can be done silently without expression. A jigsaw PUZZLE. I found details in the other passengers that reminded me of Jerome. You remember silhouttes. The essentials (Date Night). My sensitive door opening gave me an opportunity to develop my morphological studies from knees to genitals. All-seeing-eye (1.26.00). I quickly gave up on remembering. It was all based on chance. Kéž by. A one meant an overly loving answer. And so on up to five, which was a complete rejection. Nějakej takovej vztah mám já k ostatním lidem - jesli to není náhodou jejich chyba! And six was no answer at all. Tam já mám killshot. The trick with this method was that I didnt have to worry about the individual relationships. But instead became completely unpredictable, which, of course, drove the men even wilder. Hey, Eddie, its me. Listen, I have given this a lot of thought, and I have come to the conclusion that we are done. Ale mi muži chceme znát vysvětlení! Asi jsem měl taky něco s nějakou nymfomankou. When I needed comfort of peace, I took out my HERBARIUM and looked at my favourite leaves. Do you love me? I understand now that you will never leave your family for my sake. Its not satisfying for me that I cant have you completely. Which is why we cant see each other any longer. Have a nice life. Tj. zabiják. To si nemuže najít nějakýho bouchače, kterýmu jde jen o jedno? My darling, I m yours. I have left her (a děti). They say that the experience of saying good bye can be very useful later when dealing with trauma. LOL. Car key. Ona dělá to samý, co Stacy předtím v autě - ponižuje se, aby získala jeho pozornost. Hysterka! Please, jsut take it. I dont want it. Asi mu ze života taky dělala pěkný peklo. Není se co divit, že chtěl z toho začarovanýho kruhu ven. Its all right. We will get the bus home. Jako uplně ten film blbej není, ale mohl se vyvarovat těch oplzlostí - proti kterým jinak nic nemám (jesli to nebude tou DC verzi). Soustředit se na jednu věc. Na sex nebo na sondu do lidský duše. I m not saying that to bother anyone. One has to be realistic. Would it be all right if I show the children the whoring bed? Lets go see Daddys favorite place. Lets have a cup of tea. Hope its not too weak (neděje jen proglužuje utrpení). The childrens father likes two lumps of sugar in his tea. Wow. Ted nám řekni, číms mu zkurvila život. This might be interesting. Si myslí, že je středobodem vesmíru, ne? Friend of Joes. Škoda, že to nezahrál do outu. Boys, now is the time to be alert, and ask all the questions your hearts desire. No já myslím, že je nic netrápí. Tak možná jak postavit Lego (tak to jsem se trefil). You dont have any questions? Well, I will start, shall I? Joke. Neskutečně se tady bavím. No one can be that cruel. They say that even the HUNS on their rampage were rather unreserved, but to split up a family - ale né takový kurvy! Se špínou, jako jste vy, by udělali rychlej konec. Uvidíte, jak dopadnete po invazi Afričanu. Už potřebujeme nějakej pořádnej masakr, abychom začli řešit taky něco jinýho než furt mezilidský vztahy. Lidi zdegenerovali do takové míry, že se začli pelešit se zvířaty. Co asi bude následovat? Jedině válka dokáže dát tendle bordel do pořádku. I think we better grab the chance to get away before things become grotesque. Užij si terapii. So how did this episode affect your life? Not at all. A proč by? To se dalo čekat. Právě proto jí nijak neimponovali. You cant make an OMELETE without breaking a few dogs. Well, thats true. Začíná se mi ten film moc líbit. Other ppl feel sorry for the addict. Fakt ne. But I was an addict out of lust, not out of need. And the lust that led to destruction around me, everywhere I went. Ne, to nebyl chtíč, ale ta zkurvená láska. Addiction sometimes lead to an absence of empathy. For me, nymphomania was callousness (bla bla). Další all-seeing-eye (1.45.40). Edgar Allan Poe. He died in the most fearful way you can imagine, in something called delirium tremens. It occurs when the long-time abuse of alcohol is followed by a sudden abstinence. Your body goies into some kind of hyper-sensitive shock. You can see the most horrifying hallucinations or rats and snakes coming out of the floor, and worms slithering the walls. Ones entire nervous system is on high alert, and you have a constant panic and paranoia. And then the circulatory system fails. But the panic and horror remains until the moment od death. Tak to vlastně není nejhorší smrt, ale zbytek života - a smrt je pak pro takového člověka vysvobozením. I know what delirium is. Most deaths, fortunately, are uneventful, as long as you medicate the patients to keep them free of fear and pain. In a few cases, the process of dying causes brain damage, which triggers what we call DELIRIUM. Thats not something we can soften with morphine. A co taklhe aplikovat 9mm Luger? To by nepomohlo? Ash tree leaves. It trully is the most beautiful tree in the forest (a z jeho dřeva se dělají skvělé luky). When the ash tree were created, it made all the other trees in the forest jealous, bcs it was the most beautiful tree in the forest. It had the strongest wood. It could be used for anything. It was the World Tree in Norse mythology (Max Payne). You couldnt say anything bad about it (jako u nás o psech - dnes řídí kriplum životy). Tak tadle holčina ukázala hodně. Its extremly common to react sexually in a crisis. POLYPHONY is from th Middle Ages. But in my eyes, Bach perfected the melodic expression and harmony. And also mixed with some rather incomprehensible mystigue regarding numbers, most likely based on the Fibonacci Sequence. You know the one that starts with the zero, and then somes the one. The sequence is created by adding the two previous numbers to create the new one, so its zero plus one makes one (jasný). The sequence has an interesting connection to Pythagoras‘s theorem of the Golden Section (3,14). It was all about finding out a divine methodology in art and architecture (ale ne v tomdle filmu). A bit like the wa a tri-tone, which was played on the piano in your little club, was supposed to be a satanic interval. The sum of the numerical values represented in Bachs name is 14, a number he often used in his compositions. The clever thing about Bachs name is that the numeric value of the individual letters are all Fibonacci numbers. This piece has three voices: the bass voice, the second voice played with the left hand, the first voice played with the right hand. That is called Cantus Firmus, or Cantu Firmus. And together, these three voices create the polyphony. Tvl, kam se to posunulo? All-seeing-eye potřetí (2.11.00). Handshake. The sum of all different sexual experiences. Since the music has three voices, I will limit myself to talking about three lovers. As I was having sex with seven or eight men every night at the time, nemožný, scheduling was tricky. To já bych přišel nevhod. He was reassuring and he knew exactly what I wanted when we had sex. There was a kind of telepathy going on when we had sex. Without words, he knew exactly what I wanted. To je nechutný. F was the bass voice. Doufám, že si nesundá ten svetr. G was quite different. The only one I had to, and wanted to wait for. Pak, že si hází kostkou. He didn’t immediately enter, the way a CAT doesn’t when you let it in. Once, when the door was open, it has all the time in the world. Ale já ne! He was like some kind of jaguar or leaopard. He moved like them, which turned me on no end. Už aby byl konec. And when I did touch him, it was with some hesitation, as his reactions were unpredictable. Říká se to o mně. He was in charge. That’s the way it was. Daily sexual satisfactions. While also having a full-time job, I was still prone to a certain sadness. These repeated WALKS became a kind of metaphor for my life. Monotous and pointless. Precisely like the movements of a caged animal. We are all waiting for permission to die. Some completely unrealistic coincidences. The secret ingredient to SEX is love. Fill all my holes. (30.12.2020) (méně) (více)