Knihy smrti

You cant stop your meds. They werent helping. Tired and numb is better than having a broken brain. Dinners ready if you are interested. You are so lost in the trees that you cant  even see the leaves. The forest. To asi nebude biologickej otec. Prasata! Here we go. Jenna off her meds. How can I eat without chewing. Stačí, když zabiješ svojí čivavu. Před tím zkurveným štěkámím není kam uniknout. Leda špunty do uší, nebo je zabít. Go n Sleep. Its like a coincidence but more cosmic. Synchronicity (poprvý, co o ní slyším ve filmu). Like a meaningful coincidence. You are sensitive. You are an artist. For moments like these, the good Lord gave us tea and cake. Nauseous means you make other ppl sick. Ellie is very particular about words. Doctors and nurses are completelly different. Doctors treat illnesses. Nurses treat ppl (doktoři vs lékaři). Its so much easies to take life than make life (life vs problem). Zase, hrozně se u toho nudím, i když to má nápad, myšlenku, je mi to blízký… Life sucks. We aint born laughing. In this world you are either the anvil or the hammer. I would rather be the ant. Then at least its over quickly. Čuráku, nesrkej to kafe! Kde ses učil žrát? Jsme snad ve chlívě! Sometimes I think I would just be rather deaf. Its called misophobia - literally the hatred of sound (mě toho sere víc, abych řekl pravdu). Včera jsem měl paralýzu - málem zapomněl! Už to naprosto ignoruju. Napsal jsem to předtím, než ji dostala sama. Potom, co si lehla na postel. Je to vlastně první paralýza ve filmu, když nepočítám ruzné posednutí. Slumber nešel stáhnout. Birds dont fly for pleasure. Flying is just an endless desperate search for food. Nemá ráda zvířata. Synchronicita s mouchou - uplně normální, kterou prožívám každej den. Je fajn, že to někdo zpracoval a nemusím to podrobně vysvětlovat. Docela se s stím i trefil. Otázka je, kde to má svuj puvod. Theres nothing like the quiet company of plants to calm a soul down. Feverfew. First rule of gardening, intruders must be weeded out. Sometimes I cant help thinking it would be much easier to be a plant. Nebo ovce. Přišla o dítě ale děkuje Bohu za druhý. Something bad happened at college (no jasně, našli si k ní cestu - demoni). It just proved to me what I always knew the world is an ugly, cruel place. And after what happened at school I just didnt feel like myself. I felt like everyone was staring at me. I guess I got super paranoid bcs my mother sent me to the farm (nemuže za to, je to malá češka). The only vegetables they grew there were the patients (lol). And afte I left it just got worse. Stop judging your feelings and just feel them. What did you feel? Followed. Sen každý … krávy. Hospitals make you sick and keep you sick. Everything you are experiencing comes from the withdrawal. Girls are made of sugar and spice and everything nice. Boys are made of snips and snails and puppy dog tails. Ta vietnamka je oblečená ve stejných barvách jako Furie, kterou jsem stáhnul předtím, než se rozhodl pro todle. Ted si vzpomněl, že mě dnes varoval Avast, že mě někdo sleduje (cookies). Aby ne, jsem přece oblíbenej! Kde máš baterku (to řikám, tvl)? WHEEZING This is critical time for you. You cant trust your senses. Má dobrou intuici. A trochu psycho.  Chudák baba! She walloped me. A jéje. Já bych jim naletěl. I did what I could to keep them from pain. It was all clear that their fate was to die a lonely death in agony surrounded by cold and indifferent machines. Now we all live under one roof. I tend the garden. Live can be perfect when you dont ask for too much. Ellie has the kindest of ways. You wont feel a thing. Just the relief of not having to see, not having to weep anymore. Její postoj se zkříženýma rukama. You stay right there, I m gonna bring you a nice cup of coffee (hot tea - co máš s tím kafem). Doufám, že jí už prokouk a hraje to na obě strany. Kids dont understand. They have got no sense of proportion (aha). Everything is huge, dramatic, apocalyptic. Its a passionate time (jsem ještě dítě). They will learn. Times the teacher. K tomudle by se hodilo hudební pozadí od Progigy - Smack my bitch of - se hodí ke všemu. Jo, hrál to na obě strany a měl v záloze náhradní plán - na co, dva starý bezbranní duchodci, mohl jí strčit nohu do dvěří a normálně si to tam prohlídnout, když měl podezření - a sledoval celej den barák. Idiot. You took your sweet fucking time. SUSPENSFUL MUSIC BUILDING Má dobrou barevnou kombinaci - ve tmě nebude vubec vidět. Připomnělo scénku z In the Spiders Web. Fuj, to je humus. Ještě, že je pod sedativama, jinak by se z toho sama poblila. Ideální v tomdle stavu sednout za volant. V podstatě ji ale zachránil život. Proč ho nehodí do kufru? Aha, sebevražda. Ta holka má pech. OMINOUS MUSIC Proč se nepřipoutala? Obrat o sto osmdesát stupnu. Nekoukám na jinej film? Klidně to už mohlo skončit. I was like a fish trying to survive on air. I m a speaker for the dead. Magician or mentally ill. I m deeply and tragically sane. Or a glutton for punishment. You expose frauds. Why is it so important that you convince everybody its all bullshit?who are you really trying to convince - yourself? Science was once defined as putting nature to the rack. Faith is believing in things that you cant see. I challenge any of you to to witness one of Simons convocations and remain unchanged. I need complete darkness. Or rather they do. The dead. INHUMAN SCREECHING Je z toho uplně jinej film, kterej má blíž ke Conjuringu. I m not sleeping mommy. Todle mi zkuste udělat v pokoji a jste mrtví. I just let them speak. Assumptions must be tempered by an open mind to new evidence. The best scientists always question. Bcs if you, with all your tools of science, with all your certainty, if you fail to prove me wrong, it will change the world. And at that point, you will see how close your son really is to you. Spolu ještě neprcali? A year later I can still feel  my son everywhere I go (demon). What if scientists (sciencists) were the ones acting on faith instead of using our best resources to find the truth. The horizon is just the limits of our vision. Čarodějnice! Četl jsem o nich předtím. What are you doing? Oh, fuck. I m so sorry, Professor. Si nemohli zavřít dveře? You want to stop looking at me like that? Like what? Like I just shot your fucking dog. Explain yourself. I think the crime scene speaks for itself. You are in recovery and this is part of your gift. I have been in prison. I have no interest in going back there. Já myslel v pekle. You dont fuck with ppl with money. Ty mám nejradši. They dont take lightly to being conned. To vidím. Zvlášt, když jsou sami ponořený v dluzích. Wake the fuck up. It was all a noc (con). I used phenolphthalein. Its invisible until exposed to an activating agent (forenzní věda). And the seizures, that was a microdose of penicillin. Takes a hour to kick in and makes the drama all the more convincing. Nemohl jen kopat nohama? You fell for it. A ty hruzu nahánějící zvuky? Duchové existujou. Medvídek! Takhle se stávají lidé závislí na zvířatech. Když skončí uplně na dně. Chudinky. I dont understand. The show must go on. Over the horizon that separates life and death. Real finall frontier. Neměla by si vzít rukavice, když mu sahá do tý držky? Its very disturbing how he suffer to communicate with the beyond. But we musnt interfere. Problém je, že ji volá o pomoc a oni to slyšeli - to jí u soudu přitíží. Pěkný tetování. Někomu se to líbí. Ale do těla bychom si neměli zasahovat. Je to chrám Boží. Jé, tak napálil jednu čubku, co si hrála na chitrou. To byla její vlastní blbost. Ravenmoore. We are headed there. Unless you want to join us in the trunk of our car, you will surrender these baverages to us. Todle je zase co za film? Nebyl to Tarantino? Fucking kids with their headphones. Generation of zombies, man. Taky si to musím pořídit. Aspon iPod. Me and Jeannie, we are gonna sip tequilas and watch the divorces doing downward-facing dog on the yoga lawn. And I gonna read Jack Reacher and William Shakespeare and leave the fucking rats in the sewer. Nechá krysy na severu, cože? To by se mýmu auto nestalo, aby mu zhasla palubovka. Bubáci maj smulu. Jo, vemete knihu, a hned jste v Mexiku. Happy place. Transformers! Takhle bych to vyřešil taky, kdyby se ty mrtky už mohly střílet. All the dead have stories. And they chose Simon to be their page. I m in my happy place. You have been writing your story your whole life. My story doesnt end here. Proč ty kdysy nepostřílí? Taky dobrej nápad. Šetří náboje. Can i help you with something? A dokonce drží kladivo - jako v tom klipu předtím. Life is a problem in search of a solution. We are joining the great, infinite nothing. We will be together. Dont you see? Its not just about us. Its about the sign we leave behind us, the footprints in the sand showing others the way. Life is a lie, that we said no to all the bullshit, that we chose the freedom of annihilation (ukazuje znak šelmy). If you dont do it now, you are never gonna do it. Já to udělal. Třikrát! Now we just do it, together (hromadná sebevražda). SOMBER MUSIC Deep Six (26.10.2021) (méně) (více)